Dear Mom
Dear Mom, Everyone has been asking me how I am. Your birthday just passed again. It came and then it went and I don’t know how I feel about that. I took all week to process and still haven’t come to a conclusion. It’s just not fun…how about that? People had great suggestions of what I should have done to celebrate your heavenly birthday. My only response to it was “eh!” These special days are a more intense reminder that you are no longer here. My whole body is preparing for the days leading up to them with a flood of cortisol. This is our second birthday without you, and I cannot imagine it will get any easier. Each passing birthday reminds me of how many months have passed since that awful day. It’s been 17 months. It seems like enough time for whatever is supposed to happen, but when you go through something hard, something traumatic, the world doesn’t stop and wait for you to catch up. I know that you would understand with an empathetic ear. I believe i...